I have difficulty leaving the house. It is not quite Agoraphobia.
I am not afraid of being at the destination, or of what could potentially happen there.
I am not afraid of traveling to the destination.
I talk myself out of leaving the house. There could be an event I am looking forward to, but thoughts and physical anxiety kick in to where ultimately I decide not to go. The physical anxiety would be rapid heart rate or fatigue as if I just finished exercising.
If the example were not a set date/time event, but say a need to run an errand. I will convince myself that it will be better to do it at another time in the near future. I may even set the date/time for when to go… and then talk myself out of that one too.
I’m not sure if this behavior is more in line with my ADHD. See this explanation:
There is something off with my anxiety around activation.
If the need to leave the house is one where I am not going alone, then my chances of actually going are greatly increased to almost always.
Again, there is not any sense of fear involved in this. When I am alone and need to leave, it is not the case that I don’t believe in my ability to succeed. There is a force of some sort that holds me back, that keeps me in-prisoned. I don’t know how to better explain it.
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